Saturday, May 26, 2018

5 Things

1. My dreamy babies


2. Super cute Megan and her super hot udon


3. This one really got to me


4. Pretending I'm Carrie Bradshaw


5. Can I spend every day here and not indoors?

Friday, May 25, 2018

My J.Crew Sale Wishlist


I typically hate dressing for summer weather- shorts clinging to sticky thighs and cotton-thin blouses stippled with sweat. This summer however, I'm trying new styles and pieces that diverge from the typical denim daisy dukes and rubber slippers in my closet. I used to own a pair of white sandals from J.Crew and wore them to their imminent death. I love how similar they were to the Cora Crisscross Sandals, which are the perfect everyday slides for summertime. I usually rotate between my two favorite one-piece suits when I'm going to the beach so I would like to add a third option to the mix. The Playa Key West Printed X-Back One-Piece Swimsuit is a gorgeous kelly green suit in a flattering cut that would look amazing especially on larger busts. I don't own as many skirts as I'd like, so the Textured Wrap Miniskirt in Coral and Stripe are classic and feminine- perfect for my office job and internship. I would style them with a flowy blouse and kitten heels. I'm a huge fan of wrap dresses but haven't found any that fit both my curves and chest area equally well. I'm hoping the Faux-Wrap Mini Dress does the trick especially since I love the color and pattern! I would pair it with nude heels and a denim jacket for a day out. You all know how I love my collection of big ass earrings and the Multi-Bead Hoop Earrings are a colorful and fun pair I'd wear with a white dress like the Classic Button-Front Dress and pink sneakers. Because my top collection consists mostly of pink, blue, and white, I want to introduce more shades and patterns to the mix. I would love to wear the Tie-Waist Tiered Tank Top with true blue culotte jeans and strappy leopard heels. I know I recently bought a pair of pink heels from J.Crew, but I couldn't resist adding the Slingback Bow Pumps to my bag. At under $100, I love how the chic design would look with an all black outfit as a pop of color!

Thursday, May 24, 2018

Half Poems


I often feel like poetry is the only medium through which I convey my true self. I'm constantly wishing for inspiration so I may become the next Sarah Kay or Clint Smith or Rudy Francisco or Kaveh Akbar but alas, the right words escape me. When I'm lucky enough that a captivating idea strikes me a lá Ted Hughes' The Thought-Fox, I record each line in my Notes app as I usually receive my best compositions in the shower or right before bed. One of the worst parts of writing poems is crafting the perfect line or stanza and having nowhere to put it. I don't like returning to a half-written piece knowing I don't have the right ending, but sometimes all I can do is write down each phrase and hope for closure. I rarely share my personal writings, especially when they're unfinished or in the first draft stage, but I'm taking a cue from Ted (not in real life because he was ick) and letting the thoughts soak in my head before finishing each "half poem".

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

On A Lifetime NFL Boycott




Last season, I boycotted the NFL in support of Colin Kaepernick after the league blackballed him for protesting police brutality and racism in America. Since the day Colin took a knee during the national anthem in August of 2016, the police have killed at least 378 black Americans according to a Washington Post study. Since 2015, the data shows that approximately 3,357 people have been killed by police force. That number itself is staggering, but compared to that of international police records, it's astronomical. American police are collectively out of control and violent, using fatal force without consequence. While it's impossible to know the story of every black American killed by cops, there are handfuls of names that have stood out over the past few years: Eric Garner, Michael Brown, Freddie Gray, Tamir Rice, Sandra Bland, Terence Crutcher, Walter Scott, Philando Castile, Alton Sterling, Stephon Clark, Akai Gurley, Laquan McDonald, and at least hundreds more. Black names have become hashtags rather than human beings, judged post-mortem for every action or mistake they made throughout their lives that would have justified their murders. In the extremely rare case that a cop is actually held accountable for unnecessary use of force, another hashtag appears, continuously leaving activists and protestors feeling hopeless.

Colin Kaepernick recognized the constant stream of black murders at the hands of aggressive, homicidal cops, and found that the American flag has never represented black and brown people in the same way it has its white citizens. In the third stanza of the Star Spangled Banner, Francis Scott Key wrote, "No refuge could save the hireling and slave / from the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave," which clearly shows how black people weren't believed to be human beings back then and they still aren't today by many people in America. The first amendment in the constitution states, "Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the government for a redress of grievances." In fact, in 1989, the Supreme Court ruled in favor of Gregory Lee Johnson that burning the American flag was "protected expression under the First Amendment". Justice William J. Brennan, Jr. argued that although an audience may take offense to an action or expression, the visual form of free speech cannot be prohibited under the Constitution.

Colin Kaepernick and many other NFL players have exercised their first amendment rights to protest the documented and undocumented violence against black Americans during the national anthem. In an effort to silence any black man who speaks out against the corrupt criminal justice system, the NFL, assisted by the White House, has adopted a mandatory policy that all athletes stand during the national anthem or remain in the locker rooms or else the team will be subjected to fines and penalties. NFL Commissioner Roger Goodell said, "The policy adopted today was approved in concert with the NFL's ongoing commitment to local communities and our country — one that is extraordinary in its scope, resources, and alignment with our players. We are dedicated to continuing our collaboration with players to advance the goals of justice and fairness in all corners of our society." Donald Trump praised the move approved by all 32 team owners, saying that the men who decide to protest shouldn't play or be in the country. Of course, the policy is a maneuver to appease an ignorant fan base, many of whom have uttered just as many racial slurs or racist comments as the president himself. They've perverted the purpose of Colin's protest, twisting the narrative into an anti-America, anti-military spectacle, which couldn't be farther from the truth. The fact is none of those fans or the cash grabbing white men in charge actually care about the heart of the issue: black men and women are being murdered by those sworn to protect and serve them at an astonishing rate. Colin Kaepernick led the charge in 2016, risking his career and the game he loved to stand up for what was right. The league has continued to keep him off the field (along with former teammate Eric Reid) and has instead adopted more racist policies to silence the black and brown men who put their bodies on the line for white entertainment. I boycotted the NFL last year and I will never watch another football game again as long as white dollars matter more than black lives. I hope you'll join me.
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